My Life Has Come Full Circle

My life has come full circle. Honestly, I hope that’s not entirely true. In 2008, I had lost my job around the same time as Chick-fil-A showed me the foor this year. I couldn’t find a job then. This year, I felt very confident that I’d rebound quick and by this point, I’d be working again. It’s not that easy. I’m just scared…and confused…and mad…and sad.

Deep down, I think I know that it’ll be okay, that my time will come. Last time, I got so down on my luck that I turned to anything that would make me feel better. I did what I could. I went through a time where I turn to religion. Not a healthy religion, but a strict, legalistic religion. I convinced myself that I could be straight. I was at my lowest. Psychologically, it was the worst thing I could ever do. It took several years to build up my confidence.

Until now. I feel so low again. I need encouragement.

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8 Responses

  1. The important thing about life is to just be yourself. Personally, I find my peace through God and through music. However, that is not how everyone finds their peace. Whether you’re gay or straight, black or white, male or female, you will ultimately be the happiest when you are yourself. Don’t try to mold yourself into what everyone else wants you to be. As they say “You were born an original, don’t die a copy.”
    Life has very simple demands, but you still make your life as you please. You’ll find another job, but you’ll only find one if you’re being yourself 100% of the time. Don’t let others get you down; it’s literally the least that they can do.

  2. Just do ur best. Ur here for a reason. U r loved just the way u r. And this thing ur going thru, as difficult as it may seem, is really all part of ur journey. U will do fine, bud! Much love!

    • Lammar, I appreciate it. Dolly says, “If you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.” I guess I feel a little like I’m drowning a bit. This rainbow I’m chasing will be worth it though.

  3. God made you exactly how you are and that is a FACT. Any religion that tells you differently is not one built around God or Jesus. He only made one you, so to run from that or try to hide that would be a very tragic thing. I happen to quite like Joie and enjoy the times and the conversations I’ve had with you. :)

    That rainbow is coming, don’t worry.

  4. Joie, I just want you to know that you were crucial to making my first two years of college worth remembering. When I almost lost the love of my life sophomore year, you stepped-in as someone to talk to and were so compassionate and understanding. You are a beautiful soul and someone I’m happy to know is around to have the effect on all the others you encounter. Since I heard about all of this shit with the chicken company, I have been praying for your situation with said company and I hope now that you’re not there anymore you can work for a company that respects who God has made you to be. Honestly, I believe you have an opportunity here to be completely genuine whereas at the little college and the large fast food chain, you had to hide. I’ll keep my ears open for job opps and send any your way that I hear about. you mainly looking in Motown? If you’re ever in Knoxville, let’s get a drink or some coffee or whatever…it’s been too long.

    • Matt Freakin’ Cheney. Thank you so much for your response. I needed that. I’ve always had a great love and admiration for you. I am looking at jobs wherever at this point, lol. I would love to hang out sometime! :) Hope you’re doing well.

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